Drum Roll Please....

Well, the RESULTS are in

It is confirmed that we are adding to our collection of BOYS!

ITS A BOY!

Yep another

Rough, Handsome, mommy lovin', Football Playin, Wrestling, Messy, ADORABLE, Funny, Basketball Bouncin, Little BOY

Yeah a Girl would have been different and "new"

BUT

How could I NOT BE THRILLED?

I have this 'boy' thing down to a "T"

(atleast so far)

and WHY NOT add to the clan?

Not to mention I won't "have" to buy anything new

ANYWAY

Needless to say we are excited

Not only that, but he is measuring 'RIGHT on' for my due date

AND

Everything looks perfect, no complications!

Nice and Healthy

What more could I ask for???

I am DUE on October 3d 2011

they have scheduled my c-section for the 23d of September

but I am thinking to have them change it to the 26th

Here are some pictures!

Brandon is gone for work so Hewitt came with me, what a little sweetie.

Hewitt in the waiting room

The little guy at 10 weeks

Again at 19 weeks

profile picture

He approximately weighs 9oz

picture of his face with his hand up by his cheek

(19 weeks)

My belly at 18 weeks

My belly at 19 weeks

Hewitt's First Primary Talk

So Hewitt was asked to give a talk on

Joseph Smith and the Restoration

I was a little nervous for him, but he wasn't nervous at all.

Maybe because he knows that story like he know his own name.

He practiced maybe twice and every time he would say,

"why do I have to practice? I already know have it perfect."

And he was right. He didn't skip a beat because he

knew the story before he was even given the talk.

It was a piece of cake.

This is right when we got home from church

Crying

I am a crier

I have always shown emotion very easily

sad, mad, happy...

I don't hide my emotions very well

If I feel them, you will see them

When I am pregnant, I CRY ALOT

Not because I am sad, mad or happy

Its because EVERYTHING I feel is MAGNIFIED

EVERYTHING

Every thought is put under a telescope and I immediately FEEL it so strong

I know that this is a result of pregnancy

It HAS to be

Not JUST the hormones but I think every time I am pregnant I start analyzing life

I start to think about priorities, family, friends, motherhood, LIFE

AND somehow everything I hear and see pertains to these parts of LIFE

I find myself crying about commercials, songs, books, pictures, home-videos, jokes, even sometimes just seeing a cute family at a park, my kids saying sweet things to eachother or to me, hearing other peoples problems, others happy stories.

I could probably start a sob-fest just "thinking" of these moments.

I used to just pass it off as a side effect to pregnancy. A hormone thing. BUT I am on my 4th child and I am beginning to think its more than that. I think its something we are meant to experience as part of motherhood. I think its so neat that I can feel so much and so deep. Even if the things I cry about seem minuscule. I know you don't have to CRY to FEEL something deep....Its just a way that I MYSELF "feel" and feel deeply.

ANYWAY

Its a BIG part of my daily life lately so I thought I would share

I would post a picture of myself crying but I thought I would save myself the embarrassment.

Bittersweet

Well I was excited to celebrate Easter with my kids but

VERY sad that we couldn't spend it with my Husband.

I bought their "basket stuffers" and I put their baskets together all by myself

and it felt so empty without him here with me.

It was so fun watching them run all over the house to find their baskets but

I still kept thinking, "I wish Daddy was here"

EVEN though, they had so much fun and they thought it was so cool

After Breakfast we sat down and watched a few Easter movies about

Jesus Christ and the TRUE meaning of Easter

I couldn't help but choke up

especially answering all my boys questions about the atonement and the Resurrection

Some of our good friends Tanya and Curtis,

invited us over for an Easter Egg Hunt and some yummy food and it was so fun. I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends.

Curtis went and bought all the kids loads and loads of toys

in addition to the eggs that we all brought

They went and hid all the toys and eggs

my kids thought it was Christmas

It was so good to sit and visit with friends while the kids played and played and PLAYED,

I sure miss Brandon but

atleast I have these amazing friends to help me not miss him SO MUCH.

Hewitt and Linford found their baskets

Harper found his...

Easter dinner with Tanya and Leah

The Hunt

Kids Eating their Easter Dinner

Coloring

Before the hunt

LAZY

Well I have been just a little "LAZY" lately

I haven't been taking all the pictures that I WISH that I would

So therefore I haven't blogged

because what's a blog post without pictures?

Well yesterday my kids went to their

cute little friends' birthday party and I was able to get some shots.

It has been so nice and sunny here and this next week is supposed to be even nicer so maybe I'll get some more pics and be better about posting.

We have

ALOT

going on in our lives right now and I have so much to blog about.

Our Three Musketeers

Best Buddies

Harper and Brody

Cutie Pies

If I could arrange this marriage I would!

Linford and Avery

Admiring the presents

Diesel, Hewitt, Harper and Linford

Hewitt and Diesel

I love this picture

BROTHERS

Detroit and Linford

Swinging

Brody and Harper

Scared

I haven't been able to stop thinking about this.

I don't know why it has been weighing so heavily on my mind

But I have been SO SCARED lately of something happening to

myself, my husband or one of my children

It seems like more than ever I am hearing about little

angels being diagnosed with cancer or some kind of life altering illness

One of the parents (Brandon or I) getting in a car accident or being

diagnosed with a terminally ill disease,

I can't imagine leaving my kids without a mother or father

What about those freak incidents that you don't think will happen in your family and someone dies without you being on good terms or saying good-bye?

Even just something "bad" happening...

not necessarily -death- just something unfortunately unexpected?

My heart is so heavy

I mourn for these families who go through these trials,

my heart aches for them

I don't know how I would do it

I don't think I could do it

I know that there is a greater plan for us. I know that there is more after this life. I know that we will see our loved ones again. I am SO thankful for this knowledge. It doesn't mean I won't miss them till I see them again, it doesn't make it "easy".....I know I can turn to my father in heaven and that there are angels looking over us. I know that there are special people here on earth that surround us to help us through hard times, whatever the trial may be.

I look at these people who have gone through these trials with their children, spouse or loved ones, and I see such strength. I admire them for the way they handle their situation. I find myself praying for them and sometimes I don't even know them.

I put myself in their shoes and the tears just start rolling down.

Many times miracles happen and people make it out okay-

and what joy that takes place when that is the outcome.

LATELY I haven't been able to get this off my mind.

LATELY I cannot say enough "I love you's" and "Thank-You's" to the loved ones in my life

I DON'T want to regret any time with my kids or my spouse.

Even if NOTHING happens to them ever, I don't want regrets.

How do I stop worrying about the what-if's?

How do I stop thinking about something happening to my loved ones?

My heart goes out to those who experience pain and trials in all aspects of life.

I know that my savior has been through everything that we have experienced in our lives

He feels our pain, our sorrow, he KNOWS us

He KNOWS what we are going through-

Better than anyone else.

So much F U N

Got together with these gals to watch the

Bachelor Finale

and have some

"girl time"

and it was so much fun

Perfect group

These girls are the kind you laugh with till you cry

and you are your complete self

the only kind of friends to have

Thanks Leah for inviting us over!

Tanya. Jessica, Me, Kim and Leah

Funny Face

Get a load of Leah's face....

hope she doesn't kill me, but I LOVED this!

Tanya

how do you not love this girl?

She took my camera and took this and I just die laughing when I look at it....

hope she doesn't kill me either

Tanya. Kim, Jessica and Leah

Kim and Jess look freakin awesome in this one

Jessica, Tanya, Leah, Kim and me

Butt shot,

I dunno,

I think we were running out of poses

Tanya, Jessica, Leah, Kim and Me

The Girls

Head Stands

Headstands again

Love this one cause Tanya totally falls on Kim

and everyone is laughing

So much fun!

Love how some people you can have a blast and you don't have to GO anywhere.

feeling at home

You know how there are some people who make you feel at home

no matter where you are?

That describes my aunt and my cousins

I haven't really seen them for quite some time

probably close to 10 years

and yet I have spent lots of time with them in the past couple months

and I feel like I have been around them the whole time

Last night we celebrated Marques's birthday who just turned 2

So much fun spending time with them

My cousins, Aunt Kris and some of the boys

Kelsi, Katie, Kim, Me, Abby, and Kris

Madden, Hewitt and Marques

Hewitt and Marques playing on the stairs

Harper gives their dog Crosby a million kisses when we are there

these are FULL ON kisses

It's hard to capture, but this is just the beginning of the kiss

I know it sounds and looks gross

BUT

its actually really cute

Really???

-March 7th 2009-

Happy Birthday to my Baby Harper

I swear he was just born yesterday, right?

This little guy has brought so much love, happiness and laughter

into our home that I don't even have the words to describe it.

He is so full of himself its quite comical

This little 2 year old acts and behaves well beyond his 2 short years of life

He talks and talks and has us laughing all the time.

He is VERY stubborn

and VERY independent and persistent

He has quite the sense of humor

and he LOVES to show off his dance moves

it is hilarious

We will catch him singing made-up songs all the time

He loves to wrestle

constantly asking,

"WESSO Mommy?"

"WESSO Daddy?"

"WESSO Who-it?"

"WESSO Winfoed?"

He LOVES animals, not afraid of bugs at all

He LOVES dogs, he'll let them lick him all over

(which is quite gross and funny at the same time)

He LOVES sports and superheros (mainly HULK)

Things I hear on a daily basis:

"I don Like that one" (I don't like that one)

"Mon, Mommy, Mon" (C'mon, Mommy, C'mon)

"TOP IT" (Stop it)

"Watch a show?"

"Where daddy go?"

"I hungy" (I'm hungry)

"Ow, it hoooots" (ow, it hurts)

"weed a book?" (read a book?)

I could go on and on

He is so much fun

He is the runt of the bunch

but I think he is almost up to where the other boys were at this age

He weighs 27.8 lbs

and we'll find out all his other percentiles

and his height at his well-child appointment

which I will post then

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUD!

March 7th 2009

Blessing Day

May 2009

2 months old

4 months old

6 months old

6 months old

Payson Onion Days

6 months

Christmas Dinner in Idaho

December 2009

10 months

Oklahoma

16 months

Oklahoma

17 months

7 months

18 months

Oklahoma

17 months

21 months

Texas 14 months