Monday, August 10, 2009

Being a MOM

I have just been thinking alot about being a mom.
What kind of parent am I?
Am I doing everything I always wanted to do with my kids?
Am I teaching them everything I should and need to be teaching them?
What have I missed and how can I improve?
I look at these SWEET little TENDER beings and I know I am 100% responsible
for every little and big thing that takes place with them.
Safety, behavior, health, happiness, most developement, choices they make or "will" make,
their knowledge of the gospel, etc.
It is so overwhelming to me.
I feel its important to think about these things and evaluate them and become better because
we can always be "better".

I also have this weird obsession with their "memory of me"
How will my children remember me as a mother?
Not just when I pass away but when they are all grown.
What will their perception of me be when they are all grown?
Will I be someone they turn to?
Will they have respect for me and for my advice?
How do you ENSURE those things that you want so badly?
I think a huge part of it is being a good example for them and lead by example....
but for some reason that can be hard because I feel like sometimes
I want them to be "more" than what "I" am.
I love being a mom. Sometimes I get so stressed out about the world and what it will do and the effect it will have on them.
Then I have to remember 2 things....
first, there is a reason why we have the gospel,
second, we can let the world change us or we can CHANGE the world.
Anyway, I love my husband and little boys in a way I never knew you could love.
It is one of the most amazing, most fulfilling feelings I have ever experienced.
I am so thankful for them.



5 comments:

Blake and Jenny Jones Family said...

That was a really good post. I have been thinking a lot about those same things lately. I can't believe how much Hewitt looks like his daddy in that last picture. It is so obvious he is a Mcbride.

Chris and Mindy said...

What cute little boys!! Awesome post! I think about these things all the time.. and I only have one kid and it stresses me out!! You're an awesome mom and I can totally see them calling and coming to you after they grow up because you'll be their best friend.

Alisa said...

I love looking at your blog its always so uplifting!!!

Ryan ♥ Breelyn said...

Oh Ashley you're so darling. Just the fact that you're taking the time to think about all these things just shows what an AMAZING Mother you are! I was talking with Ryan and he said that he always knew you'd make an incredible Mother! And you do!

Liza said...

Ashley I am confident you're a wonderful mother that teaches the right principles and more than that, sets an example of them. You make motherhood look so fun. These boys are precious. They look so happy. You make me excited to be a mom!

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