Saturday, April 30, 2011

Crying

I am a crier
I have always shown emotion very easily
sad, mad, happy...
I don't hide my emotions very well
If I feel them, you will see them

When I am pregnant, I CRY ALOT
Not because I am sad, mad or happy
Its because EVERYTHING I feel is MAGNIFIED
EVERYTHING
Every thought is put under a telescope and I immediately FEEL it so strong
I know that this is a result of pregnancy
It HAS to be

Not JUST the hormones but I think every time I am pregnant I start analyzing life
I start to think about priorities, family, friends, motherhood, LIFE
AND somehow everything I hear and see pertains to these parts of LIFE
I find myself crying about commercials, songs, books, pictures, home-videos, jokes, even sometimes just seeing a cute family at a park, my kids saying sweet things to eachother or to me, hearing other peoples problems, others happy stories.
I could probably start a sob-fest just "thinking" of these moments.

I used to just pass it off as a side effect to pregnancy. A hormone thing. BUT I am on my 4th child and I am beginning to think its more than that. I think its something we are meant to experience as part of motherhood. I think its so neat that I can feel so much and so deep. Even if the things I cry about seem minuscule. I know you don't have to CRY to FEEL something deep....Its just a way that I MYSELF "feel" and feel deeply.
ANYWAY
Its a BIG part of my daily life lately so I thought I would share
I would post a picture of myself crying but I thought I would save myself the embarrassment.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Bittersweet

Well I was excited to celebrate Easter with my kids but
VERY sad that we couldn't spend it with my Husband.
I bought their "basket stuffers" and I put their baskets together all by myself
and it felt so empty without him here with me.
It was so fun watching them run all over the house to find their baskets but
I still kept thinking, "I wish Daddy was here"
EVEN though, they had so much fun and they thought it was so cool

After Breakfast we sat down and watched a few Easter movies about
Jesus Christ and the TRUE meaning of Easter
I couldn't help but choke up
especially answering all my boys questions about the atonement and the Resurrection

Some of our good friends Tanya and Curtis,
invited us over for an Easter Egg Hunt and some yummy food and it was so fun. I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends.
Curtis went and bought all the kids loads and loads of toys
in addition to the eggs that we all brought
They went and hid all the toys and eggs
my kids thought it was Christmas

It was so good to sit and visit with friends while the kids played and played and PLAYED,
I sure miss Brandon but
atleast I have these amazing friends to help me not miss him SO MUCH.


Hewitt and Linford found their baskets


Harper found his...


Easter dinner with Tanya and Leah

The Hunt

Kids Eating their Easter Dinner

Coloring

Before the hunt





Saturday, April 23, 2011


LAZY
Well I have been just a little "LAZY" lately
I haven't been taking all the pictures that I WISH that I would
So therefore I haven't blogged
because what's a blog post without pictures?
Well yesterday my kids went to their
cute little friends' birthday party and I was able to get some shots.

It has been so nice and sunny here and this next week is supposed to be even nicer so maybe I'll get some more pics and be better about posting.
We have
ALOT
going on in our lives right now and I have so much to blog about.


Our Three Musketeers

Best Buddies
Harper and Brody

Cutie Pies
If I could arrange this marriage I would!
Linford and Avery

Admiring the presents
Diesel, Hewitt, Harper and Linford

Hewitt and Diesel

I love this picture
BROTHERS

Detroit and Linford

Swinging
Brody and Harper

Our Famiily

Our Famiily

Hewitt

Hewitt
Hewitt is our SMART litte 4 year old. He listens and does everything I tell him to. He is the BEST big brother and my big helper too.

Linny Binny

Linny Binny
This little dude keeps us laughing all the time. He just barely turned 2 and He is so sweet and getting so big.

Harper

Harper
Harper is 7 months old. Easiest baby yet and crawls everywhere and stands up on his own too!

Bossy

Bossy
Our BIG Wonderful Doggy. He will be turning 4 in October! We love ya Buddy!

McBride Family

McBride Family
20 grandchildren and 1 on the way! 14 boys and 7 girls.

Brandon and I with Harper at 4 months

Brandon and I with Harper at 4 months

Linford Family

Linford Family
7 grandchildren, soon to be 8! 3 girls and 5 boys