Friday, March 25, 2011

Scared


I haven't been able to stop thinking about this.
I don't know why it has been weighing so heavily on my mind
But I have been SO SCARED lately of something happening to
myself, my husband or one of my children

It seems like more than ever I am hearing about little
angels being diagnosed with cancer or some kind of life altering illness
One of the parents (Brandon or I) getting in a car accident or being
diagnosed with a terminally ill disease,
I can't imagine leaving my kids without a mother or father
What about those freak incidents that you don't think will happen in your family and someone dies without you being on good terms or saying good-bye?
Even just something "bad" happening...
not necessarily -death- just something unfortunately unexpected?
My heart is so heavy
I mourn for these families who go through these trials,
my heart aches for them
I don't know how I would do it
I don't think I could do it
I know that there is a greater plan for us. I know that there is more after this life. I know that we will see our loved ones again. I am SO thankful for this knowledge. It doesn't mean I won't miss them till I see them again, it doesn't make it "easy".....I know I can turn to my father in heaven and that there are angels looking over us. I know that there are special people here on earth that surround us to help us through hard times, whatever the trial may be.
I look at these people who have gone through these trials with their children, spouse or loved ones, and I see such strength. I admire them for the way they handle their situation. I find myself praying for them and sometimes I don't even know them.
I put myself in their shoes and the tears just start rolling down.
Many times miracles happen and people make it out okay-
and what joy that takes place when that is the outcome.
LATELY I haven't been able to get this off my mind.
LATELY I cannot say enough "I love you's" and "Thank-You's" to the loved ones in my life
I DON'T want to regret any time with my kids or my spouse.
Even if NOTHING happens to them ever, I don't want regrets.
How do I stop worrying about the what-if's?
How do I stop thinking about something happening to my loved ones?
My heart goes out to those who experience pain and trials in all aspects of life.

I know that my savior has been through everything that we have experienced in our lives
He feels our pain, our sorrow, he KNOWS us
He KNOWS what we are going through-
Better than anyone else.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

So much F U N

Got together with these gals to watch the
Bachelor Finale
and have some
"girl time"
and it was so much fun
Perfect group
These girls are the kind you laugh with till you cry
and you are your complete self
the only kind of friends to have

Thanks Leah for inviting us over!

Tanya. Jessica, Me, Kim and Leah

Funny Face

Get a load of Leah's face....
hope she doesn't kill me, but I LOVED this!

Tanya
how do you not love this girl?
She took my camera and took this and I just die laughing when I look at it....
hope she doesn't kill me either

Tanya. Kim, Jessica and Leah
Kim and Jess look freakin awesome in this one

Jessica, Tanya, Leah, Kim and me

Butt shot,
I dunno,
I think we were running out of poses

Tanya, Jessica, Leah, Kim and Me

The Girls

Head Stands

Headstands again
Love this one cause Tanya totally falls on Kim
and everyone is laughing
So much fun!

Love how some people you can have a blast and you don't have to GO anywhere.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

feeling at home



You know how there are some people who make you feel at home
no matter where you are?
That describes my aunt and my cousins
I haven't really seen them for quite some time
probably close to 10 years
and yet I have spent lots of time with them in the past couple months
and I feel like I have been around them the whole time

Last night we celebrated Marques's birthday who just turned 2
So much fun spending time with them


My cousins, Aunt Kris and some of the boys
Kelsi, Katie, Kim, Me, Abby, and Kris
Madden, Hewitt and Marques

Hewitt and Marques playing on the stairs

Harper gives their dog Crosby a million kisses when we are there
these are FULL ON kisses
It's hard to capture, but this is just the beginning of the kiss
I know it sounds and looks gross
BUT
its actually really cute


Sunday, March 6, 2011

Really???


-March 7th 2009-

Happy Birthday to my Baby Harper
I swear he was just born yesterday, right?
This little guy has brought so much love, happiness and laughter
into our home that I don't even have the words to describe it.
He is so full of himself its quite comical
This little 2 year old acts and behaves well beyond his 2 short years of life
He talks and talks and has us laughing all the time.
He is VERY stubborn
and VERY independent and persistent
He has quite the sense of humor
and he LOVES to show off his dance moves
it is hilarious
We will catch him singing made-up songs all the time
He loves to wrestle
constantly asking,
"WESSO Mommy?"
"WESSO Daddy?"
"WESSO Who-it?"
"WESSO Winfoed?"

He LOVES animals, not afraid of bugs at all
He LOVES dogs, he'll let them lick him all over
(which is quite gross and funny at the same time)
He LOVES sports and superheros (mainly HULK)

Things I hear on a daily basis:

"I don Like that one" (I don't like that one)
"Mon, Mommy, Mon" (C'mon, Mommy, C'mon)
"TOP IT" (Stop it)
"Watch a show?"
"Where daddy go?"
"I hungy" (I'm hungry)
"Ow, it hoooots" (ow, it hurts)
"weed a book?" (read a book?)

I could go on and on
He is so much fun
He is the runt of the bunch
but I think he is almost up to where the other boys were at this age
He weighs 27.8 lbs
and we'll find out all his other percentiles
and his height at his well-child appointment
which I will post then

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUD!

March 7th 2009

Blessing Day
May 2009
2 months old


4 months old

6 months old

6 months old

Payson Onion Days
6 months

Christmas Dinner in Idaho
December 2009
10 months

Oklahoma
16 months

Oklahoma
17 months

7 months

18 months

Oklahoma
17 months

21 months

Texas 14 months

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Happy Birthday Brandon!!!
I am SO fortunate
and
SO blessed to have this guy in my life
for my companion
for my BEST FRIEND
I feel like the
luckiest girl in the world to be married to him
I couldn't ask for a better father for my children
or a better husband for myself
He is simply amazing

Brandon and Bryce
These two buddies share a birthday
Its been hard being far from Bryce,
but having a birthday apart is even worse.

Brandon and Harper

Brandon and Harper

Linford, Brandon and Hewitt

I love Brandons face in this one
Look at the boys, then look at Brandon...
I don't know what just happened, but he is not happy

LOVE this one

Brandon with the boys

Brandon and Harper

Squaw Peak

Somehow these three all cut their fingers pretty bad within the same day or so

Brandon, Harper and I

Brandon and I
Brandon playing football with Linny on Christmas Day

...LOVE you BABE...

Our Famiily

Our Famiily

Hewitt

Hewitt
Hewitt is our SMART litte 4 year old. He listens and does everything I tell him to. He is the BEST big brother and my big helper too.

Linny Binny

Linny Binny
This little dude keeps us laughing all the time. He just barely turned 2 and He is so sweet and getting so big.

Harper

Harper
Harper is 7 months old. Easiest baby yet and crawls everywhere and stands up on his own too!

Bossy

Bossy
Our BIG Wonderful Doggy. He will be turning 4 in October! We love ya Buddy!

McBride Family

McBride Family
20 grandchildren and 1 on the way! 14 boys and 7 girls.

Brandon and I with Harper at 4 months

Brandon and I with Harper at 4 months

Linford Family

Linford Family
7 grandchildren, soon to be 8! 3 girls and 5 boys