Crying

I am a crier

I have always shown emotion very easily

sad, mad, happy...

I don't hide my emotions very well

If I feel them, you will see them

When I am pregnant, I CRY ALOT

Not because I am sad, mad or happy

Its because EVERYTHING I feel is MAGNIFIED

EVERYTHING

Every thought is put under a telescope and I immediately FEEL it so strong

I know that this is a result of pregnancy

It HAS to be

Not JUST the hormones but I think every time I am pregnant I start analyzing life

I start to think about priorities, family, friends, motherhood, LIFE

AND somehow everything I hear and see pertains to these parts of LIFE

I find myself crying about commercials, songs, books, pictures, home-videos, jokes, even sometimes just seeing a cute family at a park, my kids saying sweet things to eachother or to me, hearing other peoples problems, others happy stories.

I could probably start a sob-fest just "thinking" of these moments.

I used to just pass it off as a side effect to pregnancy. A hormone thing. BUT I am on my 4th child and I am beginning to think its more than that. I think its something we are meant to experience as part of motherhood. I think its so neat that I can feel so much and so deep. Even if the things I cry about seem minuscule. I know you don't have to CRY to FEEL something deep....Its just a way that I MYSELF "feel" and feel deeply.

ANYWAY

Its a BIG part of my daily life lately so I thought I would share

I would post a picture of myself crying but I thought I would save myself the embarrassment.

Bittersweet

Well I was excited to celebrate Easter with my kids but

VERY sad that we couldn't spend it with my Husband.

I bought their "basket stuffers" and I put their baskets together all by myself

and it felt so empty without him here with me.

It was so fun watching them run all over the house to find their baskets but

I still kept thinking, "I wish Daddy was here"

EVEN though, they had so much fun and they thought it was so cool

After Breakfast we sat down and watched a few Easter movies about

Jesus Christ and the TRUE meaning of Easter

I couldn't help but choke up

especially answering all my boys questions about the atonement and the Resurrection

Some of our good friends Tanya and Curtis,

invited us over for an Easter Egg Hunt and some yummy food and it was so fun. I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends.

Curtis went and bought all the kids loads and loads of toys

in addition to the eggs that we all brought

They went and hid all the toys and eggs

my kids thought it was Christmas

It was so good to sit and visit with friends while the kids played and played and PLAYED,

I sure miss Brandon but

atleast I have these amazing friends to help me not miss him SO MUCH.

Hewitt and Linford found their baskets

Harper found his...

Easter dinner with Tanya and Leah

The Hunt

Kids Eating their Easter Dinner

Coloring

Before the hunt

LAZY

Well I have been just a little "LAZY" lately

I haven't been taking all the pictures that I WISH that I would

So therefore I haven't blogged

because what's a blog post without pictures?

Well yesterday my kids went to their

cute little friends' birthday party and I was able to get some shots.

It has been so nice and sunny here and this next week is supposed to be even nicer so maybe I'll get some more pics and be better about posting.

We have

ALOT

going on in our lives right now and I have so much to blog about.

Our Three Musketeers

Best Buddies

Harper and Brody

Cutie Pies

If I could arrange this marriage I would!

Linford and Avery

Admiring the presents

Diesel, Hewitt, Harper and Linford

Hewitt and Diesel

I love this picture

BROTHERS

Detroit and Linford

Swinging

Brody and Harper